What I’m really terrified of is leading an average, ordinary life with a regular job and an invariable routine, planned holidays, an average household, fixed responsibilities and not doing anything different to be remembered by.
This is exactly why I’m so agitated and terrified lately. This is what my life has fallen into and I don’t know how to change it.
With this post having almost 400,000 notes currently, you’re definitely not alone in that feeling. I think most of us have been there.
Here’s my advice, for what it’s worth.
Focus on one thing that interests you and reach for the freakin’ stars. Set hugely unrealistic goals, and then just go for it. Even if you fall way short, you’ll still be in a better place than you are now. And you’ll have an exciting/stressful/potentially amazing journey in the in-between.
Some of my most life-changing moments so far were born out of “fuck it, why not?” decisions.
When I emailed Hank back in 2007 to be in a collab video with me, he had zero idea who I was, I was just a faceless viewer… a year later we started DFTBA Records together. Kristen emailed me after reading a blog post of mine. We started talking on skype and eight months later she was traveling across the country to move in with me. That was four years ago.
Hell, even starting on YouTube back in 2006, I didn’t have enough money to afford a video camera, so I raised funds on my livejournal. That eventually lead to 60,000+ subscribers, 7,000,000+ views, a freakin’ book deal, my first commercially released music, the fiveawesomeguys project, DFTBA Records, and so many other wonderful things.
Had I been too proud or shy to ask for help, it’s very likely none of those things would have happened. That’s not lost on me and I try to pay it forward whenever I can.
But the point is, if Hank and I weren’t crazy enough to envision a real record label with a gigantic warehouse and artist roster, we never would have started shipping CDs out of my bedroom. And if I wasn’t crazy enough to think people would sing along to my music, I never would have written “Summer of ‘09” or “Boxcar Blood” (which have, like, 1,000,000 views on YouTube, and “Summer of ‘09” was a huge singalong at the first VidCon when ALL CAPS performed it on stage).
This goes against everything those goal-setting websites recommend, but sometimes you just have to be unrealistic with your expectations. =)
For you, maybe it’ll be your crafting. Maybe you want to teach and eventually run your own workshop or craft how-to supply/education empire. Maybe it’s your YouTubing and you want to rub shoulders with Grace and Hannah, be the “very special guest” at VIdCon 2016… so develop some crazy show and jump all in with it. Or maybe there’s something else you’re passionate about that you haven’t even shared with us yet. Do that thing x 1,000.
That’s my advice anyway.